Venting.

I know I’m not perfect, and I know I’ve made mistakes but why do you treat me this way? I’ve never done anything to you and you didn’t even know of my existance until I started dating one of your friends. I just dont understand what I did for you to hate me. The things you say about me aren’t even true. I wish, before you said stuff, you would at least find out the truth. I’m sorry that now all of a sudden one of your friends wants to spend time with me, and sometimes not you. I truly am. However, Im not really the one to blame. I love him. A lot. He’s changed me. He’s made me realize a lot about myself and I am willing to do anything for him. He’s my everything and he accepts me for who I really am. We make each other laugh constantly and I’d say we have the most amazing relationship. I wish you would just see that. Please, learn the real me. Accept me. And let US be happy. I need him…

Rambling.

My weekend was pretty good. On Friday night I hung out with my friends. Saturday was the day of Winter Carnival. I spent most of the day at Jerica's house with her and Serena. We basically lazed around and watched tv all day. It was relaxing. Then at 4 I finally got ready for Winter Carnival and went on my way. We went to the mall in Terre Haute to eat and hang out before the dance. Every single person in the mall stared and whispered "Why are they so dressed up?". Personally, I was frustrated. Obviously, we are about to go somewhere that requires us to be dressed up!! Then we went to the dance and had a lot of fun. I thought it was weird how they played ZERO slow songs but whatever. Sunday was Valentines Day and I spent most of the day with Justin and Dillon. Wooo. =/ haha. Monday, I didn't do anything but sleep and hang out at home. Now, its Wednesday and I'm sick. :( Great.

Bad/Good choice.

In the middle of October I moved to Clinton, Illinois. Which is about a two hour drive from here. I went to school there for about three weeks before I moved back to Paris. The school was absolutley horrible. There was no school spirit, no friendly people, and the way they did things were not normal to me. I dreaded going to school everyday and probably missed more than I went. I was raised in Paris so it was the first time I've ever really moved to a new place. It was hard and looking back, now, I dont understand why I wanted to move. It made me realize how amazing my school actually is. I drove back here every single weekend to see my friends. I ended up missing Paris a lot more than I thought I would. Now, I'm back at home.

Since then my life has changed a lot. I was basically reunited with a bestfriend from when I was little. I gained a new person in my life that makes me very happy. Also, a few of my friends have made changes in their lifestyles. Im really not that happy about their changes but I guess I should deal with it because its not my choice or life to decide. Even though a lot has changed, I feel like I was never gone. I guess the saying "You never know what you got till its gone" is true. However, I could easily move back. But somethings, you cant get back so be careful with your decisions in life.

French

Soo, today I went to Mayo to talk to kids about French. I realized for one that people are really immature in junior high. Also, they are sooo rude. I wanted to slap a couple of them in the face. I didnt go there to listen to them make comments about how stupid our presentation was. I went there to convince them to take French. That is all. On top of it all, the power point we had to show was soo stupid. The very first slide said "French is hot!". It was so weird and very corny but I admire Mrs. Witmer for trying. Speaking of French, I need to do my homework. So Im going to quit writing this and do something else. Bye. :p