Anger Towards School

I am so ready for summer. I am sick of school and everything that comes along with school. I barely ever have homework and because its the end of the year I have TONS of homework. I have two presentations this week and one next week! I havent been this stressed out in a long time. It makes me want to take all easy classes next year. Which I probably will now because I'm sick of all this homework. When assigning things, I really dont think teachers take into account everything else we need to do. Or maybe they just dont care? Whatever. I'm done with this school year. Hello summer :)

Mayfete.

A lot of things come with Mayfete such as; drama, fighting, immaturity. That is why I do not participate in it. I did participate my freshman year but I'm also not much of a dancer so I had chosen not to do it my sophomore and junior year. However, I did go see it on Friday and I would like to congratulate all the girls AND guys who danced for our senior girls. The girls all looked so wonderful and the dancers were very good! I am very impressed that the underclass girls could put moves to the songs they were given. In my opinion the chosen songs for this years mayfete were a bit on the slower side. Howver, everything turned out great. I was amazed by Zach Batson's dancing as well as Cody Waggoner's drumming skills! It was a wonderful time! And the best part of all was spending the whole time sitting next to my bestfriend (Mrs. Kash). :) It is a very good thing that she left before the father-daughter song, however, because I broke down bawling and laughing at myself because I was crying. lol Anyways, good job Mayfete girls!

My Weekend

So this past weekend was really fun. Friday I didn't have school because of the ACT, so I ran around town getting last minute things for prom. Then that night, I spent the night with Jerica and Serena at Jerica's house. I ended up staying up until 2 in the morning. Then I woke up Saturday morning around 8 and started my day. My friends and I got all ready and we all looked wonderful. Prom was a lot of fun despite having troubles finding the building. Justin and I decided that going to after prom would be a bad idea since we were getting up at 5 in the morning to be ready to leave Paris at 6 for Holiday World. I ended up going to bed Saturday night at around 2 in the morning. Holiday World was fun on Sunday. I'm not a fan of rollercoasters but what I rode was fun. On the way back, the GPS kept taking us to a rode that didn't exist so it ended up taking us about 4 hours to get back to town. Then when we got back,Justin and I hung out for a little bit and then he went home. After that, I put pictures online. I didn't go to bed until past 11 Sunday night. So now, it is Monday and I am at school with basically no sleep rambling about my weekend. Hopefully this makes since. :)

fuahsifhnav

So, I have come to realize that when I am in a bad mood.. I stay in a bad mood. One person could set me off and I will be mad the rest of the day. It's annoying I guess. Right now, for example, I am in a terrible mood and have been all day. Nothing has made it any better. Each and every person I've talked to today has said or done something to annoy me in some way. I do not know what to do to make myself be in a better mood. Uhg, maybe I'm just stressed out? I dont know, I do have a lab report due tomorrow. That's stressful. I am more than ready for summer to be here. I wont have to be around things that stress me out; homework, teachers, certain people, and drama. I dont really know what else to say...

Disappointment...

It's always nice to feel important. It's always nice to feel needed. But mostly it's nice to feel loved. It's a good feeling to know that someone needs you or actually wants to be around you. However, lately I have been feeling useless. I have felt like none of my friends care wether they spend time with me or anything. It's really been bothering me but I guess I have been holding it in. I do not want to seem selfish but I feel so unimportant to everyone. It sucks when I am extremely excited to see someone and very ready to hang out with them and they are just not that excited about it and would rather be home doing nothing. It hurts I guess. Now, my birthday is in a couple days and yet again...I dont even feel important or like it should even be celebrated. Having this additude makes me feel soo selfish but I mean it's one day of the year that you can actually say is yours and when it doesn't even matter, it sucks. I dont even care what I get for my birthday, all that matters to me is being with the people I love the most. However, I'll be spending it with only one of my friends (not that she isn't enough) and that is it. It's dissapointing I guess but I'll just see how it goes...

राम्ब्लिंग अबाउट सोमेथिंग ठाट मक़स में मद

Something that really bothers me about certain people is their lack of open-mindedness. If you're not exactly like the next person then people will make fun of you. They will talk about you. They will put you down. It's terrible. What is so wrong with being different? Why do people have to either be a hick or jock in this town to be "cool"? It really makes me mad. I am not saying that every hick or jock in this town is a jerk but a few of them are. I know because I'm around one of them frequently. He never has anything good to say about anyone who isn't like him. If you wear different shoes, clothes, or listen to different music then your gay? It's so idiotic. Also, people think if you listen to "screamo" music or rock bands then your automatically an emo/gothic kid? No! That's far from true. It's okay to be different. We all have different personalities and we are all our own person. People can like multiple things. A person who listen to screamo can be an amazing athlete. There's no need for stereotypes and judging. If we were all the same, then no one would be remembered.


*For some reason my title keeps changing to a different language, and I dont know how to fix it. lol.

Thinking of college...

As of right now I have no idea where I want to attend college. It's starting to get brought up a lot even though I am only a junior. For the past two years I have had it set that I want to become a Pediatric Nurse and eventually a Pediatrician. However, working in a preschool classroom is making me second guess what I want to do. Being around the kids in my classroom makes me so happy and makes me question if I'd rather be a early childhood teacher. The preschool teacher and her aide always tell me how great of a job I do with the children and how good I am with them and it honestly makes me feel really good about myself. But is that what I would like to do with the rest of my life? I dont know. As of now, I'm leaning more towards pediatric nursing so I'll keep looking into that more. As for where I want to do. I have no idea. I never wanted to go far away from Paris, but lately it seems perfect to get away from here. However, if I leave Paris or this area, I leave more than just the town. I leave my dad, some friends, possibly my boyfriend, and many memories. It's a hard decision. So, I guess I need to start seriously thinking about this. I mean, it is my future.