Disappointment...

It's always nice to feel important. It's always nice to feel needed. But mostly it's nice to feel loved. It's a good feeling to know that someone needs you or actually wants to be around you. However, lately I have been feeling useless. I have felt like none of my friends care wether they spend time with me or anything. It's really been bothering me but I guess I have been holding it in. I do not want to seem selfish but I feel so unimportant to everyone. It sucks when I am extremely excited to see someone and very ready to hang out with them and they are just not that excited about it and would rather be home doing nothing. It hurts I guess. Now, my birthday is in a couple days and yet again...I dont even feel important or like it should even be celebrated. Having this additude makes me feel soo selfish but I mean it's one day of the year that you can actually say is yours and when it doesn't even matter, it sucks. I dont even care what I get for my birthday, all that matters to me is being with the people I love the most. However, I'll be spending it with only one of my friends (not that she isn't enough) and that is it. It's dissapointing I guess but I'll just see how it goes...